Being Blind

The HBO2 treatments have rendered my prescription lens almost worthless. This side effect is expected. My normal eyesight should return about 2 weeks after stopping HBO2 treatments. Of course, I am not really blind; but everything at a distance is very, very fuzzy. As with other lessons, Jesus has chosen to show me a small sample. What is remarkable is my eyesight to see the computer screen is fine with my prescription lens, allowing me to update this site and share my experience with you. I don't think that is an accident; it must be part of His plan. It is not the lack of operational functionality that I have missed, like reading signs at a distance or seeing people’s faces in a store or seeing a traffic light. I can see traffic lights and some signs. I have greatly missed the joy of simply looking out over a landscape and seeing it clearly. In the past when we would travel to MD Anderson, I always enjoyed and drew great pleasure from the opportunity to look out the car and clearly see ponds and meadows. Now all I see is fuzziness. In the past as I viewed a landscape, I would think back on my dog training days and imagine incorporating the landscape into a training exercise or a retriever hunting test. In the past, these imagery exercises made me happy and I enjoyed the ride to Houston very much. This trip to Houston, I just closed my eyes and tried to sleep as much as possible. I did pray and thank Jesus for the lesson, because I knew I would be writing this and sharing the lesson Jesus was giving me with you.

So, the next time you see a blind person, remember there are two dynamics involved:

1. Lack of operational things like reading a sign, etc.

2. The inability to gaze upon creation and feel the joy to be derived from doing so.