My Brain Tumor and the War in Iraq

All of these lessons are simply my inner thoughts and experiences. My intent has never been to suggest to anyone what he or she personally should think or do. I am only the guide, I am not the teacher. With that said, I will share with my thoughts as our country is on the brink of war.

I find praying about my trivial brain tumor recovery a most selfish endeavor when so many people are going to be suffering so much worse than I have at all levels of the human suffering scale. I realize there is always human suffering and always will be; but there may be a spike in the scale soon and right now there are more significant things than my trivial brain tumor to pray about.

I thought about praying for Jesus to strike fear and shame in Saddam’s heart so he would just leave Iraq and avoid war. Then I realized that would be my plan, not God’s plan. As a human being, I am in no position to offer a plan to God. Furthermore, it has been my personal experience that Jesus is all about love and grace. Yes, I even think Jesus loves Saddam. I know you think I am crazy. In my mind however, if Jesus can’t love the worst of us He can’t love the best of us. He loves us all.

So, my prayer is simply that God’s will be done and all the grace, love and mercy possible be applied. I have said this before, but I will reiterate that I have asked Jesus to use my body and soul in any way He chooses to help Him with his work and His plan, especially with this war thing.

Also since the hate and suffering index may shoot up in the next few days, I've decided I will personally try to add to the love index a bit. I am going to try to be a little more thoughtful of others today. I am going to tell Audrey and Katherine how much I love them and how proud I am of them. I am going to tell my friends I appreciate their friendship. In general, I am going to try to be a little better human being today.