Even Though

The stories and lessons on this web site represent my personal experiences.

Even though I know from these experiences that Jesus loves me...
Even though I know HE carried me through the worst part of this ordeal...
Even though I try to understand the lessons of Bernie Siegel...
Even though I have grown spiritually during this ordeal, and even though I have faith in Jesus Christ...
Even though I know GOD always has a purpose...
Even though I try to follow my friend Wayne's advice by trying not to think too much...
Even though I know literally 100's of people are praying for me...

In spite of all these things, I am still a human being, an ordinary man, and by design I come complete with doubt and fear built in. I have an MRI in a few days that could be good or bad and even though my blessings are so numerous, I still worry. Last night, I went to sleep troubled and worried. Sorry, Wayne, I was thinking too much.

I had a dream. I dialed a phone number. The phone rang and there was an answer and a voice said, "Good news, no new growth". Immediately I saw a bright light, out of the light came the number 333 and a voice said, "We love you". By the way, my MRI is scheduled on 03/03/03 at 3PM. At 3:33PM I should be in the MRI. Next in my dream, I was at SFA explaining something of great importance to Dr. Johnson, the president of SFA when I worked there. Dr. Johnson looked at me and stated, "You are a gift".

The quick and easy interpretation is I was told everything would be fine with the MRI because Jesus loves me and I am a gift. However, there is more to this dream than a simple assurance. This dream was not a guarantee of a good MRI; rather it was given to me to comfort me during the day. During the day I had several sharp pains in my head, which would have been easy to assume were related to new tumor growth, but I was not concerned because of the assurance I was given in the dream.

I ate lunch with my great friend and brother in Christ, 'Doc' Michael Connolly, DVM, where we discussed my dream. Later in the evening we talked on the phone and we both realized the dream was not about a good vs. a bad MRI. The message I was given was on a higher level of faith. The dream is about having faith in Jesus Christ and truly being able to say with confidence and in peace "Thy will be done".

Tonight, I will sleep well in Christ's hands as HE flies the plane.