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"Morris, you know I love you. I have shown you this. You know I will always be right here with you. I have shown you this. You know I will take care of you and never leave you, I have shown you this as well. You know God’s Will be done and God’s plan for you will be done. Why do you need to know what’s next and why are you fretting so much? " An Answer from Debbie Daro. At 07:23 PM 4/23/2003, Debbie wrote: Hey Morris, I can't even begin to imagine, or pretend to have the slightest idea, what it's like to be in your situation. I can't even begin to know what its like to be awake at night wondering what's ahead. Of course you want answers, of course you are worried. How could you not be afraid, if not most of the time, at least some of the time. If we didn't care, we wouldn't be human and if we didn't wonder, well, where would that leave us. I don't know, Morris, as I said I can't even begin to imagine what it's like to be you right now. Maybe wanting answers is just about being human, about caring. I don't know, no one knows, maybe it's all about not knowing but caring enough to seek answers and being amazed by the wonder of it all. btw... I read your latest update, walking around circuit city... not half bad :) My reply to Debbie is my answer to my own question: Debbie, Thanks so much for your reply. It is always a treat to get an email from you. In my case, I think my situation is a simple matter of faith. If I can place my destiny in the hands of Christ, then I can be free from worry and I will be comforted as He guides my outcome because, in my personal doctrine, I know He loves me, will never leave me and will take care of me. After all, death is not something any of us can opt out of. We all get here where I am sooner or later, unless we get jerked from life without the opportunity to examine our life before we die. In the old days a lingering death was thought of as a good death because one had time to prepare spiritually, right wrongs and say good bye. Today, we consider a quick death a good death because we are freed from having to deal with the matters of the soul, which most of us have found in life was easier to ignore than embrace. It does not matter what your doctrine is or your church affiliation. In the final analysis, it always gets down to a personal doctrine anyway. Believe it or not, this revelation came from John-L. He and I spent several hours together a few weeks ago, where we worked out a concept of personal doctrine, free from man's imposed doctrine. We coined the concept The Genesis Group, as the inspiration comes from the insight provided by the book of Genesis. A personal spiritual doctrine has no bounds and easily withstands man's challenges and attacks. When John-L and I parted, he gave me a big hug. John-L is a great man in my book, with a huge amount of courage. I have been blessed with a disease that offers no real pain and tons of treatment options. In addition, my recovery is more in my own control than medicine's. I am the only one that can truly save me. My guess is I will survive, and my left side weakness and paralysis will stay with me the rest of my life such that I am always grounded right here so I will never lose this perspective. God bless you |